When I cheated on you

Gosh...I am so afraid to write it down..afraid that someday you will discover all the lies behind my smile. But I could not lie..no lie ...no more..

I cheated behind you..

I think somebody else when I am with you..

I admire someone else except you..

I dream of making love with who ..but not you..

I keep thinking about him..that you never know..

Its so scary to think that my lust will be over that keep me to survive beside you..

I will no lie..no lie ..no more..

I was smiling when I wrote something..I wrote something but not you

When my face showed a big smile...that smile was not for you...

I dressed up nicely but dress up for someone else not you..

Thats all when I cheated on you...