Who am I to You

Hari ini tanpa sengaja aku browsing mengenai Lesbian Celebrity wedding, Ellen DeGeneres dan Portia De Rossi. Dengan naifnya aku mencoba mencari tahu bagaimana pasangan lesbian itu menyalurkan hasratnya, just for my curiosity. Terdamparlah aku di blog journal seorang lesbian, aku baca dan coba mengerti apa yang mereka rasakan. Bagaimana cinta pasangan sesama jenis bermulai, ketakutan yang dirasakan bersama serta makian yang diterima di blog mereka dengan kata-kata kasar.

Puisi indah terlahir oleh rasa cinta yang besar, puisi yang hadir untuk menghadirkan nafas cinta dari setiap kata-kata tersusun. Cintanya yang besar terhadap pasangan lesbian yang selalu ia rindukan di setiap desah nafasnya. Dan selalu terbersit keinginan "who am I to You, darling". Kegalauan yang timbul dari cinta yang tidak biasa.

Aku mungkin belum bisa menerima keadaan tersebut, dan menganggap hal tersebut sesuatu yang haram untuk dilakukan. Tapi siapakah aku yang bisa men"judge" orang lain atas minoritas yang mereka miliki. Tapi aku juga belum sanggup menerima jika seandainya ada orang-orang terdekat denganku, mempunyai orientasi seksual berbeda dengan kebanyakan orang.

Semoga, dan semoga happy ending untuk semua.

Photo : taken from People Magazine

Notes when I was 20

When I saw your photo, I kept telling myself how much I miss you
The days, that we kept talking without knowing
The days when we laughed together,
The days when we made fun of everything, which that was not funny at all

The days, when we did not realize that our heart getting closer and closer
The days, when your hand touched mine without said a word
The day, when you kissed me... I was shocked!!!

Oh man, I miss you so much. I wish you knew How much I want you to be mine
I wish you realized, that my heart is belong to you.
My eyes is only for you, My Smile is only because of you.

If I can change the time, I will let you know that I am yours.
Darling...please dont let me go...
Please keep me in your arms.
Put me in your shoulder, so I can lend my head to you

Darling...Please dont let me go ...
Please dont let me out of your eyes, I am afraid that I could not return
Darling...Please dont let me....

Married...Is that all!

I read my unmarried friend blogs, mostly they are talking about love whether its about disappointed, full of love or feeling about falling in love. So I did a little bit survey what married people wrote in their blogs. Mostly are about life, works, family and general stories. I hardly find they write about their feeling about love outside of their family. is it a sin? or taboo? or they were afraid to be called "cheating or unfaithful".

I have kind of similarity. But I can't lie that I miss those feeling, fall in love, the chemistry that pumps up my adrenaline. I don't have this kind of feeling anymore, but It does not mean that my love has gone,the time has changed the feeling that I have had. Its become usual... The love has transformed to different species. It become dependencies, caring, and so many thing that make me burried the neccessity of love and chemistry.

Tujuh belasan...What does it mean to us!!!

Today, I wake up a little bit early compare that I used to be on my holiday. Its pretty easy to guess...yeah..tujuh belasan.

I heard in the radio who tried to compile the meaning of 17-an from Indonesian people. By average, they said, it was our independence day and it means its competition time, party time, panjat pinang, lomba karung...I am stunning and thinking....I just don't believe it, is that all!!.
But frankly speaking that was also in my head if someone asked me what do you think about August 17 and what will you do ?

Freedom...its about freedom. But are we enjoying a freedom today?
Simple answer ....Yes!! we have a freedom to choose our own life, our own president with our new system of democracy. People tend to think that the democracy is a freedom, But do you know what is the freedom it self???

I am searching in the web, and look what I find..

"[M]an is not free unless government is limited. There's a clear cause and effect here that is as neat and predictable as a law of physics: As government expands, liberty contracts."- Ronald Reagan

George Orwell wrote about "meaningless words" that are endlessly repeated in the political arena. Words like "freedom," "democracy," and "justice," Orwell explained, have been abused so long that their original meanings have been eviscerated. In Orwell's view, political words are "often used in a consciously dishonest way." Without precise meanings behind words, politicians and elites can obscure reality and condition people to reflexively associate certain words with positive or negative perceptions. In other words, unpleasant facts can be hidden behind purposely meaningless language.

The problem is that democracy is not freedom. Democracy is simply majoritarianism, which is inherently incompatible with real freedom.

Please check out this page : http://www.antiwar.com/paul/?articleid=4737

It is an interesting page to read...
Enjoy friend!!!. Hope we know now that democracy its not all about we know so far... at least for me.

Vertical Integration_ Critical Review

Critical Review on Vertical Integration as Organization Ownership : The Fisher Body – General Motor Relatinship Revisited, By Benjamin Klein (1988)

Fisher Body mendapatkan kontrak ekslusif untuk mensupply metal body car ke Perusahaan General Motor pada tahun 1919. Pada tahun 1924, permintaan akan badan mobil yang terbuat dari logam meningkat menjadi 65% terhadap produksi mobil GM. Tetapi Fisher Body menolak untuk pindah ke lokasi yang lebih dekat ke GM yang menyebabkan “Hold UP terhada GM, sehingga menjadi salah satu alas an mengapa GM mengakuisis Fisher Body.

Di dalam artikel ini Klein mencoba memberikan penjelasan atas kritik coase yang mengatakan bahwa penjelasan Klein hanya merupakan alternative dan tidak benar. Walaupun pada dasarnya Coase setuju bahwa “Quasi Rent” akibat investasi yang sangat specisific bisa menyebabkan issue potensial untuk hold up, tetapi bukan menjadi alasan utama untuk melakukan integrasi vertical daripada menggunakan kontrak jangka panjang, karena “opportunistic behaviour biasanya telah dicek dengan efektif di pasar oleh kontrak dan reputasi yang bertransaksi. Coase juga mengatakan bahwa biaya mekanisme pasar adalah menemukan harga dan melakukan kontrak, dengan begitu integrasi vertical bukanlah solusi yang utama.

Klien menegaskan bahwa elemen yang paling penting dari biaya transaksi bukan “biaya tintanya” untuk menulis peristilah dalam kontrak seperti yang telah dikatakan oleh Coase, tetapi yang paling significant adalah biaya untuk yang tidak terantisipasi selama negosiasi kontrak dan proses negosiasi ulang.

Hanya sekedar menambah apa yang telah dikatakan oleh Klein, selain mencegah biaya-biaya yang tidak terantisipasi sebelumnya, dan kenapa pemilihan integrasi vertical seringkali menjadi pilihan bukan long term kontrak, adalah sifat dari kontrak tersebut yang sangat rigid atau kaku seringkali suatu perusahaan sulit melakukan suatu tindakan yang tepat untuk mengadaptasi perubahan situasi yang terjadi di lingkungan perusahaan tersebut. Disamping tentunya faktor-faktor lain yang bisa mempengaruhi keputusan perusahaan untuk melakukan vertical integrasi atau LT kontrak antara lain gain power di dalam industri mereka, mengamankan supply mereka ( dalam hal ini adalah body metal) yang memang tidak mudah didapat di spot market.